I have never been this confused and scared and so alone. Its like even God has left me. I have never felt so alone too. Why do I let you do this to me, time and again. You have hurt me more than any human being and you were the one who stood before God and made a vow with Abba to love and protect me.You were suppose to be there for me. Right now I feel so crushed, so drained and tired out. I feel as if a trailer just rolled over me. But deep within me there is a strength I can draw from and I will pick myself and go on because I must. I know I have so much to live for, God's not finished with me yet and He has not given up on me so I won't give up on myself either.