I feel so cold and despondent. Where is the lifter of my heart? I know you are right there but my eyes fail to see. You are the same yesterday, today and tomorrow but I am forever changing. I feel that I going through the fire now and I am being moulded and shaped for his glory, not my own. When I think of you Lord, I feel my strength returning but when my thoughts stray into areas of anger and bitterness and hurt, I feel you fading far away. I am so tired, just so tired. What is it you have in store for me Lord. Sometimes I feel I just want to go home. I will finish the race and do what I am suppose to do for your glory and your glory alone. Each of us has a specific purpose in this life and when we trust in you, that plan for our life will unfold. We have a right to expect the best, because we serve a God of Abundance, such a loving father no earthly father can be. If I become depressed than I sin against you. I love you too much Lord to do that. Just hold me a little closer Lord, let me feel warm and safe. Let my faint heart rest in your bosom. I know you will never leave me or forsake me. For every hurt he renders me, you will love me more and I will feel not pain. THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH!AMEN

Jesus Calling - God of Abundance

As you sit quietly in My Presence remember I am a God of abundance. I will never run out of resources; My capacity to bless you is unlimited. You live in a world of supply and demand, where necessary things are often scarce. Even if you personally have enough, you see poverty in the world around you. It is impossible for you to comprehend the lavishness of My provisions: the fullness of My glorious riches.

Through spending time in My Presence, you gain glimpses of My overflowing vastness. These glimpses are tiny foretastes of what you will experience eternally in heaven. Even now you have access to as much of Me as you have faith to receive. Rejoice in my abundance - living by faith, not by sight.

Philippians 4:19; 2 Corinthians 5:7

Sarah Young, excerpted from the devotional Jesus Calling »

Declaration of Interdependence
by BJ Gallagher and Lisa Hammond

We hold these truths to be self-evident:

That all women are created equal -
but each is blessed with different gifts and talents.

That all women are endowed with certain individual rights -
but each must assume shared responsibilities.

For the happiness of all
depends on the commitment of each
to support equality and individuality,
rights and responsibilities.

We declare all women to be mutually interdependent -
banding together to support one another,
sharing our experience, strength, and hope,
that all may enjoy life, love,
and the pursuit of laughter.

We agree to encourage one another in tough times
and celebrate in good times.

We commit to taking turns leading and following,
inspiring and teaching,
listening and learning.

We agree to give credit where credit is due -
including us.

We commit to loving ourselves first -
because we can't give what we don't have.

With this Declaration of Interdependence,
we set ourselves free -
free from old beliefs that are no longer true,
free from self-doubt, insecurity, and loneliness,
free from self-imposed perfectionism.

We set ourselves free -
heeding our intuition in all her guises,
loving our bodies through every change,
finding our voices to speak our own truths.

We set ourselves free -
to create fulfilling work,
to form nurturing families,
and to build great friendships.

We are strong;
we are beautiful;
we are generous;
we are wise.

We are women -
committed to creating
a world that affirms us all.

BLESSED MOTHER'S DAY


To day is mother's day. None of my kids are back, but I am sure that would have if they could. We had a wonderful service at GROW. I am indeed so bl est to have such a wonderful church. Its because of my three children that I am a MOTHER. I may have failed them sometimes, but I will never stop being there for them.Just to pick up the phone and hear that 'Hi Ma' makes my day. I connect with each one of them in a special way My son is the worrier, always worrying about me. He can read me well, and I just cannot hide anything from him. He knows me too well. Every evening while we drive home from work, Lizzie and I enjoy our chats. We can talk for more than half hour and before we know it we are home. I feel that I am in the car with her chatting. I value that time with her so much, where I am just her mum and she my little girl. Jess now is my sparing partner. We argue over everything when we are together but the minute she is on the bus I miss her and wish she did not have to leave. She has a warm and caring heart. How I miss them and often think of the days when they were at home growing up. I am so proud of each one of them, at the adults they have become.
I pray for them to put God first in all they do, seek him everyday to know his plans for them and know how much more he loves them. They are the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus.

Sometime its hard to have hope. But without hope where will we be. I have been stuck in that place, hoping and hoping, but now I need to hope but move on also.I believe that God has his time and I can only hope.I cannot stop hoping like I cannot stop loving, these two go together. I have so many decisions to make. I need to make decisions that will alter the rest of my life. I need answers. One thing in me is that I hold on to the Lord, and I KNOW he is always with me. He may not always answer but that does not mean he did not hear.
He hears and see everything but always in his time.So I will wait and he will give the answers I seek. I trust him always and in all things. Even though one heart has been closed to me, he has opened another, his own heart. So I wait. Another new day, another new beginning. There is always tomorrow and Jesus has already gone ahead and is waiting there for me.

My niece in Perth wrote this------
LET US DRESS OURSELVES IN GENTLENESS, FOR IN OUR TOUGH UNBENDING
WORLD, GENTLENESS IS A VIVID REMINDER OF GOD'S PRESENCE AMONG US.

Somehow I find that so refreshing and calming.Holy Spirit teach me to have a gentle spirit, even in the midst of the storm.

Why can't people see that its not about us anymore but about Jesus only.Always only him. Its not about our hurts, ours, ours, ours but its all about his love and his grace, his forgiveness.When we can come to that point, we are truly one with him. That is my desire now. To know this God I love and serve. I need to know him so intimately, I want to see him and feel him passing me by. I want to feel his love all around me. I feel this during services in GROW. This awesome awesome presence . My legs turn weak and I just want to weep and weep. But I want more and more of him.He is more than enough for me. When I look back on my life, especially the last few months, I see his love carrying me through this storm. When I was condemned and made to feel so unloved and ugly, he made me see how beautiful I was and how much he loved me. When I felt alone and so lonely, he came quietly and wrapped his arms around me ands held me close. He saw my tears and healed my broken heart. So if anymore is in despair out there, remember that someone does care. JESUS cares. More than you will ever know. Its never about us or about what we are going through now, but it must be always about him and him only. So be blessed today and may the love of Jesus surround you always.

Just Think
You are Here, Not by Chance

Just Think you are here,
Not by chance but by God's choosing.
His hand formed you
And made you the person you are.
He compares you to no one else - you are one of a kind.
You lack nothing that His grace can't give you.
He has allowed you to be here at this time in history
To fulfill His special purpose for this generation.

I got these from Dayspring, a beautiful must see website. God has a perfect plan for each one of us. He knows us better than we know ourselves. When we think all is hopeless and nothing can save us, he is there, in the midst of our hopelessness, to raise us up. Seek him now, today ,this instant, he is there waiting.