Something good comes out of everything! That is what I always believe and how true it has become. I was so broken and thought I would never heal, so lost and did not know what to do or who to turn too. It seems this battle was mine alone. I was all broken up inside but then he came to me.He told me to go to Grow church and I did.When the worship began I felt myself being uplifted and surrounded by this warm soft feeling. I knew you were there with me Lord. You saw my tears and held me when I cried. You gave me hope and told me you cared. I was not alone, you were right there, carrying me. I have never looked back since. Day by day you strengthened me and encouraged me with your word. You lift me up everyday, and when I look for you, you are always there. Your joy is my strength. I appreciate each day and each day is always special to me. You teach me and correct me and let me see how blest I really am. You thought me to surrender but not to give up. Just let you have your way not mine.I love you Lord so much and I know you will never leave me or forsake me. What an awesome GOD you are

Right now I wish I was alone on a beautiful Island, a cool breeze fanning my face,the waves like playful children racing each other and the quietness all around. This is a secret place I go to when nothing in my life makes sense anymore. I escape to my Island where nothing bothers me anymore and no one can get to me. The quietness drains me of my sadness, taking away the pain too. There I look up and see my Lord come to me. He quietly sits beside me and gently, I lay my head on his shoulder. His arm comes around me and the peace that no man can give, he gives, and it floods my soul. I feel the love all around me, and I am uplifted. He whispers softly" just close your eyes and rest, I am here. I will carry those heavy burdens for you, why I will even carry you"
So I continue to lean on him and his love envelopes me.
"COME TO ME, ALL YOU WHO LABOR AND ARE HEAVY-LADEN
AND I WILL CAUSE YOU TO REST"
matthew 11:28.

LIVE A LIFE OF PERMANENT PURPOSE

Its so difficult to do, but when you can ,you are a winner. Life is full of obstacles and you never know whats around the bend, but do not give up. I have a God that will not let me give up.We have such an awesome god who gives us a permanent purpose. I have been betrayed in the worst possible way. Had a knife trust through my heart from someone I loved, but then the Lord was there to heal me. He wraps his arms around me and tells me everyday how much he loves me and I do have a purpose for my life. My hurt is healing and my hate is gone. I am filled with forgiveness, because God made that possible for me.Now I am filled with his love and the love of those around me. His peace is upon me and I am so blessed. He has a plan and purpose for my life. When I think of my pain, I think of his, dying on the cross for me, when I think I am worthless and not much good, he tells me I am wonderfully made in his image. When I feel I cannot take anymore, he carries me and gives me rest. And when I am ill, he touches me and heals me. MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!

Nothing is forever, only the Lord and his love for us. I must make this decision to start my life anew. This is hard because it means letting go of so many things that I hold dear. The pain and hurt is more than I can handle and I need to get out of this for good. What shall I do Lord? We never know whats ahead and the fear of the unknown is great before me. But I know I do not walk alone.I am blessed with a great family who rally around me, and their love and prayers carry me through this. I still worry for you and wonder what will become of your life. Do you not see this? Do you not understand what you are about to loose? But I must detach myself from you, only than can I live and grow.

Every morning is a gift; the gift of a new day. Appreciate and be grateful for each new day and make the best of each day. You never know, it may be your last. Life can change in an instant, and nothing is a sure thing. Everything you have can be taken away in an instant. So start your day right. Bring the Lord into your day, release this day to him and ask him what you can do for someone else to day. When you stop thinking that life is all both you, you will start living.
There are times when I wish I could just stay in bed all day and maybe never ever wake up again but than I realise how bl est I am to be able to wake to new day. No matter what I may be challenged with that day, I know the Lord's strength is my strength. I am so loved, I am so protected and I am so blest.

A storm has broken and its harsh and strong. Winds scream all around me, shaking me to its very core. Its relentless, its harsh and I wonder, will I weather this storm? The storms of life come when we least expect it, unfurling its full anger and destructiveness at us. This can a harsh cruel world. Things you thought were good and true, turn out to be evil and cruel. You think you know someone well, you've spent so many years together and there is a darkside that you never knew at all. But no matter what storms ride,we know that we are not alone. My Heavenly Father is there with me,and I am hiding under the shadow of his wings until this storm has passed. I am strong, for his strength is my strength and when it gets to hard for me to walk and Istumble, He will carry me. He is the one person I can trust.

I just read a beautiful sharing by my brother. Tomorrow is promised to no one and we really do not have a control over Life. Something can happen , and in an instant our lives can change forever. That is so true and I think even frightening at times. But if you have faith in the Lord, you know that whatever life brings, he will equip you to handle it. This is why we do not fear, because we trust him with our lives. This is the big difference.
I have started working now and to be honest, I don't know if I love it or hate it. Its just something I need to do. I have to keep busy or I know what will take over. Wish I had someone to just hold me and tell me it will all be alright. But then again I am not alone. I do have someone who listens and hears every word I say. He loves me unconditionally and even when I don't tell him I need him, he knows and I feel his comfort and peace around me. There is always a new day tomorrow, a new beginning and we must embrace it as such, or else we would not be able to go on. Let the joy of the Lord fill our hearts with his love and peace.